Adoption Update

The roller coaster is getting faster and steeper as each day passes. Craig and I have been in contact with one of the birth mothers I mentioned in my last post. I either email, text or talk to her everyday. We were able to meet both her and the birth father about 2 weeks ago. I can't describe the incredible experience it was for all of us. We were overwhelmed by The Spirit that accompanied us in the meeting and amazed at how much we are like them. Sometimes when I am talking to the birth mother it is almost like I am talking to myself, it is absolutely incredible. We have so much in common and share a lot of the same dreams and goals for our futures. Our relationship blossomed overnight and I feel a love for her like nothing I have ever felt. She is so compassionate, loving, intelligent, beautiful and above all the most selfless person I have ever met. She has a very delicate and difficult situation that she is in that has led her to the adoption process. My heart aches for her each day and Craig and I have spent so much time thinking about her, talking about her and praying for her that she will find the strength and the courage to endure this challenge she is faced with. I feel so lucky to have met her. The good news is that if her final decision becomes adoption she has told us that she "knows without a doubt that her child should come to our home." We are so excited and feel so blessed for this experience but we are learning patience as we give her the time and space she needs to feel absolutely sure about her decision to place.

I am already completely involved emotionally and of course that means that Craig is as well because we are in this together. I worry how we will cope if it is not meant to be but we both know that Heavenly Father will handle it and if it is meant to be it will. The birth mom is 24 and very mature about her decision making process. We admire her for her strength and honesty as we all face this together. She said to me the other day that "we will get through this together with the support of Craig". I was so touched by her words.

She is about 35 weeks gestational age and her doctor has told her that he will induce her if she can just make it a couple more weeks. She is only working part time now and has tried to cut back in her exercising (although she is a lot like me and really enjoys her time at the gym). Her doctor is very understanding of the situation she is in and is aware that the sooner this is over the better it will be for her. She has had a very healthy pregnancy and her baby boy is doing really good. He weighs about 4 1/2 pounds and we are all hoping that he will gain at least 1-1 1/2 more pounds by the time he is born.

So, the reality of it is that we could be parents in a couple of weeks or not. It is a tough situation but this is what adoption is and we have accepted that this is the way we are to grow our family. I know that whatever happens it will be okay. Either scenario is going to take strength and Craig and I leaning on one another so we will just plan for that. The hardest part is that my heart aches for this birth mom and the difficult decisions she is facing. She wants her baby to have everything he deserves and she is allowing The Spirit to direct her and I believe she will make the right decision. She told me the other day as we were having lunch together that she doesn't feel like he is her baby anymore and that no matter how difficult it is the reality of it is setting in.

Craig and I are trying to offer her the support she needs and definitely keeping her in our thoughts and prayers. We would really appreciate it if you could pray for her and the birth father also. They are in need of Heavenly Father's help at this time and to feel of his comfort. We are so grateful to all of our friends and family who have endured this with us and appreciate your love and support at this time.